A TINY PIECE OF GLASS

A TINY PIECE OF GLASS

broken glassIn the upper left corner of her forehead is a line of red in what looks like a  small cut that she got recently.  It is actually avery old wound from 40 years ago when she was just 18 years old.   In 1978 she had a Volkswagen Beetle  convertible.  Red with a black top.  It was her pride and joy.  Her three younger sisters admired that car, and she was the coolest because she drove it.  Then she wrecked it.  The car was totaled and she ended up in the hospital with a broken femur.   A metal rod was put into her leg and she mended quite well.  Shards of glass cut a few scars across her forehead, but not enough to mar her beauty.  The car was unsalvageable.

To this day, she has the metal rod in her leg.  It is a physical reminder of that accident, and of the damage that has lasted all these years.  I often think about the course of her life over the forty years since then and I always link that accident as the start of it all, although she was probably damaged long before that.  But for me, that accident was symbolic.  I may never know if she was under the influence when she crashed her VW, but the next time my sister had a car wreck, about 7 or 8 years later, I know for a fact she was wasted.  

It was on New Year’s Eve and we had both been at a party.  I saw her car (actually, her roommate’s BMW) wrapped around a telphone pole as I was headed home.  I pulled her out of that situation before the police arrived so that she wouldn’t spend the night in jail.    Bringing her home, I listened as she broke the news to her roommate that she had totaled her car.  Still inebriated (or was she just indignant?) she was unapologetic about wrecking the car, so her roommate, Kathy,  jumped on her.  My knee-jerk reaction was to save her ass once again.  I pulled the justifiably angry roommate off of her, too forcibly,  it would seem.  I tossed Kathy across a wooden chair and she fell to the floor.  I apologized to Kathy the next day.  Animal instinct to protect your sister”, she offered, accepting my apology.  

The way I figure it, I saved my sister’s ass twice that night.  Once from the police and once from an ass-whooping by her roommate.  I wonder if I did her a favor, or if she would have been better off facing the music.  Too many people have pulled her out of situations she’s gotten herself into, and have saved her from facing the music.

Her life has been a succession of wrecks.  Not only car wrecks.  Just wrecks in general.  Damage trailing her like a wake.  It was that way even before that first car accident.  Damage to physical property.  Accidents have a way of happening at her hands.  It drove our mother crazy.  Things were broken, burned, ruined, or just missing.  And it was always her fault.  At least, she was sure Mama always blamed her, but the truth was that she usually was the cause.  Rather than own up to it, she’d hide it.  It’s not that our mother would punish her.  It’s just that she couldn’t take the criticism.  She was a walking disaster going back to childhood, and it followed her throughout her life.

In one week staying with me in a brief moment of sobriety recently, she broke a new ceramic dish I had just bought.  I didn’t even get it home before it was broken.   She burned a dishcloth.  Melted it, actually.  And broke the switch on my table lamp.  But these are just material things and they are not important.  I cannot say anything about them because that is how she has been since early childhood.  A train wreck.  For me, the material possessions mean nothing.  For others whose prized possessions she has stolden, lost or broken, the hurt runs deeper.

More important to me is her own fragility and not the fragility of material things.  She is a delicate creature of greatness and beauty.   If her crime is selfishness, it is sometimes offset by her nature of sweet affection towards those she loves.  She loves and appreciates her family and friends with a depth that is sincere, until it is time to feed her own addictions.  Then her brain disconnects from her actions and the pain she inflicts on herself and on those who love her.  The addiction takes precedence over all.  

She is perhaps one of the most beautiful souls I have ever known.  At the same time, her selfishness knows no bounds.  This contradiction manifested itself in childhood.  As a child, I saw her as both adversary and protector at the same time.  She herself could unleash unholy hell upon her younger sisters, but she was also very protective of her siblings against the dangerous and abusive wrath of our father.  If she were not so damaged herself, you couldn’t imagine the loads of good she could unleash on the world.

BarbieThe damage – who knows when that first manifested?  When our parents split up?  Or long before that?  That damage is what she has played out on herself over these last four decades.  But after four long decades of inflicting an inordinate amount of pain on herself and on her family, there is a ray of hope.  The light is back in her eyes.  The beauty is creeping back onto a face that has aged beyond its years.  The tiny piece of glass that was lodged into her forehead forty years ago when she wrecked that VW convertible is slowly emerging.

They say that our bodies will reject a foreign object.  It may take years, but the body will push it out, forcing it ever closer and closer to the surface until the foreign object emerges.   That tiny piece of glass is coming out of her head.  It is a good sign.  As the glass works its way to the surface, every day her eyes are brighter, and her head a bit clearer.  Every day is one more day of sobriety.  I don’t know what happened this time to make her want to be sober.  But one day she woke up and realized her fragility and knew that if she continued, she’d end up dead.  So she saved her own life.  She came to her family, who want nothing  more from her than for her to be well.  

I could fill a dozen warehouses with broken, burned, ruined, lost and stolen items that are in the wake of her path.   I’d sacrifice a thousand warehouses more of stuff to save her life.  

The broken glass is coming out.  

 

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Elizabeth is a teacher, blogger, and activist living in South Florida.  A native-born Floridian, she counts herself lucky to have a family to write about.
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“Grownups Can’t Protect Us”

WParkland blog Heathers playbillhen the cast of Florida REP’s Education Conservatory sang these words in their musical production of “Heathers,” I felt a shudder run through me.  I could just hear Emma González and her classmates echo this refrain.  I could see Cameron Kasky,  Marjory Stoneman Douglas High School student, meet Senator Marco Rubio face-to-face on a stage mere weeks after the Parkland shooting, and beg Senator Rubio to offer some words of protection.  

Senator Rubio is certainly not the only grownup whose offerings are too little and too late.  One change from the class of 1989 (when Heathers, the musical and original movie take place) is that the class of 2018 has learned the hard way that they must take matters in their own hands and protect themselves.   But they do so knowing that they sacrifice their childhood.  As the chorus sings, “I could be 17…”, we adults are asking them to make this sacrifice.  They cannot be 17 because we cannot or will not protect them.  Who they will go to prom with is not one of their worries.  Making it to prom is.   

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Florida Repertory Theater, Fort Myers

Kudos to the cast and crew, and to the director, Kody Jones, for this production of “Heathers.”  Especially beguiling was Nayda Baez as Veronica.  I have to say I connected more to her Veronica than Winona Ryder’s.  Brice Kingsley, playing the Christian Slater character of J.D., authentically captures the lonely outsider from a broken home who is bullied to the breaking point.  Other outstanding performances include Athena Kelley as the queen bitch herself, Heather Chandler, while Jesse Massari as Martha (Dumptruck) Dunnstock nearly brings the house down with a heartfelt outpouring of teen lonliness in her suicide song.  Heathers Chloë Tsai and Cat Westley, and the two jocks: Robert Rosso and Scotty Wells all prove that their futures in the performing arts promise to be bright.  In fact, the entire cast and crew deserve praise for their professionalism.

This version of “Heathers” captures themes that certainly resonate with today’s high school traumas, touching upon bullying, suicide and gun violence that ring all too familar to current events.  Veronica suffers with pangs of guilt that she doesn’t feel that bad about Heather’s death.  The fact that she doesn’t feel bad makes her feel bad.  I get it.  The Parkland shooting hit me hard.  A little too close to home?  It happened at a high school in Broward County, where I live.  My daughter, 18 at the time of the shooting, had only finished high school the year before.  I came across a protest in front of South Broward High School two days after the shooting, where students were carrying signs that read: “It could have been us.”  I thought of my daughter and her high school friends.  I lost it.

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South Broward High School students protest on February 16, 2018

The production for the Florida REP version of “Heathers” began, coincidentally, soon after the Parkland shooting.  As they wrapped up their last show on Sunday, May 27, we are just days past the high school shooting in Sant Fe, Texas.  Why didn’t I lose it when I heard about Santa Fe?  Why didn’t I lose it over Sandy Hook?  I feel bad that I didn’t.  When insane tragedy becomes normalized, we all have something greater to fear: loss of compassion, and loss of a sense of outrage.

I don’t usually use someone else’s words on my own blog, but Florida REP’s director, Kody Jones’ introduction to the playbill expresses what I could never say regarding the poignancy of this production, which feels so much like it was led by high school students, rather than just portrayed by them.  Mr. Jones writes:

“ … I was shocked to see that the story of Heathers has gained even more relevance in 2018 … In March of 2017, I sat down with REPresent, our student advisory board and many other high school students and asked them one question: ‘ What shows speak to you as a young adult?  What show do you connect with so much as a high-school student that you are just bursting at the seams to perform it?’  The title that was requested more than others was Heathers

Making a decision to produce any production is not taken lightly, especially one that contains adult or challenging themes for our students and/or community.  We started with research and multiple conversations and meetings about the teen suicide, gun violence, and bullying.  We evolved from our normal artistic process to a journey that shed light on important subjects that all students have to deal with on their own…

The day of our first production meeting, we were all devastated by the news from Parkland.  Discussion began with the production team, as well as the cast, on how to proceed as we were dealing with similar atrocities in our own production.  Not long after, I was overwhelmed as members of the cast spoke up with maturity and grace, saying our story is one that needs to be told now more than ever.  The cast was not only ready to perform this type of material, but had learned throughout the process that theatre is more than entertainment; it is a platform to give a voice to the voiceless, a vehicle to present current realities and evoke thought and change within our society.”  – Kody C. Jones

Maybe today’s high school students cannot be 17, but they have learned to speak with “maturity and grace” as previous generations have not.  As my heart broke with sadness after the Parkland shooting, it also swelled with pride at how quickly,  succinctly, and eloquently our young people reacted and took to the streets, took to the internet, and overpowered our media outlets.  They could not, and would not be silenced!  (“Emma González Leads a Student Outcry on Guns: ‘This is the Way I Have to Grieve’ “

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SBHS student Ellie Branson speaks to the press on Feb. 16, 2018 (Ms. Branson is featured in the above New York Times article.

As a grownup, I felt ashamed.  “I’m proud of my generation,” my 18-year-old daughter offered as I shared photos of the South Broward High School protest on February 16th.  “Our generation has let you down,” I exclaimed to the group chat between my daughter and my  mother.  “Every generation has something to teach,” replied my mother, “and something to learn.”

After seeing Florida REP’s production of “Heathers”, I sent photos and my reaction to our family group chat.  “These young adults give us hope for the future !!!!!” my 84-year-old mother responded.   We grownups might not be able to protect them, but the generations can work together to do much better than we have done.  

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With my student, Camila at the SBHS protest on February 16, 2018

Elizabeth I. Bercaw is a teacher, blogger and community activist in Broward County, Florida. Currently, Elizabeth is residing in her birthplace of Fort Myers, Florida.  She is proud to see that Fort Myers is home to a vibrant, activated and compassionate community.

 

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Everyone Loves Someone Who Had an Abortion

 

 

by Elizabeth I. Bercaw

My mother is a true Southern lady.  She doesn’t curse.  She abhors hearing curse words, but admitted to me the other day “Well, I have used curse words.”  “Yeah, right, Mama.  In my lifetime I’ve only heard you use three: hell, damn, and on rare occasions – asshole.  Woo!”    

Mom and MeThis apple fell far from the tree.  As a “failed Southern lady”, I curse like a sailor.  I got this notion from the writer Florence King in her book “Confessions of a Failed Southern Lady.”   King’s grandmother, from a fine Virginia family, so wanted a Southern lady in the family that when Florence’s mother grew up smoking cigarettes and cursing like a sailor, her grandmother set her sights on Florence in the hopes she would turn out better.  King admits, as we can see from the title, that it didn’t quite work out the way her grandmother had wanted.  King was, at least, a partial success, and tells her readers that “No matter which sex I went to bed with, I never smoked on the street!

My mother, who – like Florence King – graduated from Ole Miss in the 1950’s, was a success as a Southern lady.  She didn’t smoke on the street and never cursed in public.  I’m sure Florence King’s grandmother would have been satisfied with that.   My mother is also a Christian woman, but not a Bible-thumping kind of Christian.  She is a quiet Christian.   A non judgmental, non-moralizing, live-and-let live kind of Christian.  She understands that Scripture can be interpreted all sorts of ways for all sorts of reasons, so she avoids drawing a moral line in the sand and telling people that if they cross that line, they cannot call themselves Christians.

This fact makes my mother not the typical Southern Christian that I encountered throughout my lifetime living in Mississippi, South Carolina, Georgia, and Florida.  As my mother was a quiet Christian not into judging others’ spiritual beliefs, I never knew what her personal opinion of abortion was.  Not until the moment I became a reproductive rights activist in 1989.

Soon after I helped co-found the University of Southern Mississippi’s first pro-choice group in 1989 with a sociology professor, Von Bakanic, and a group of activated young women, I found myself in a position where I would discover where my mother stood on abortion rights.  The Supreme Court had just ruled in the Webster decision, which allowed states to be able to regulate when and how women got an abortion.  At the time I was married to a man who was as feminist as I was and who was at every pro-choice meeting and rally I went to.  Our group was readying to drive from Hattiesburg, where I was living, to Jackson, the capital of Mississippi where my mother was living.

I phoned my mother the day before our trip.  I had to tell her I was going to be in Jackson, because, of course, I would need to go see her.  I had a little trepidation about telling her why.  I told her “I’m going to be in Jackson for a pro-choice rally, Mama.”  She replied: “Oh yeah?  I’m going to go with a couple of friends of mine!  I’ll see you there!

I was elated.  Not only was my mother not disappointed in my pro-choice stance; she was herself an abortion rights supporter!  This is a memory that will stand out forever in my mind.  When I got to the rally and saw all these Mississippi women holding signs with coat hangers that said “Never Again!”, I caught a glimpse of a middle-aged woman, dressed plainly in jeans and a t-shirt carrying a sign that read: “Mothers for Choice.”  That was my mother!  To this day, it brings a tear to my eye.  I rushed up to her and hugged her.  

Mama, I didn’t know you supported abortion rights!” I exclaimed.  “Of course I do, honey!” she replied.  [Read this part with the best Southern drawl you can conjure in your mind’s ear…]   “I am the mother of four daughters.  Of course I’m pro-choice.  I am a registered nurse.  Of course I’m pro-choice.  As a young nurse working in ER in the 1950’s and I saw women wheeled in on gurneys bleeding to death from back-alley abortions.  Of course I’m pro-choice.”  I threw my arms around my mother again.  We stood side-by-side, mother and daughter at the rally. 

I did reproductive rights advocacy for years after that.  I’ve volunteered with Planned Parenthood, NARAL, and other pro-choice groups.  I’ve defended clinics against attacks by “right-to-lifers” who are hell-bent on preventing women from accessing safe and legal abortions.  (Illegal and unsafe abortions are okay for them.)  During many years of advocacy, for me this was a philosophical argument that it is a fundamental, human right to have control over your own body, your own life, and your own destiny.  It stopped being merely a philosophical argument for me when I found myself with an unplanned pregnancy at the age of 33 from a boyfriend I had known only a couple of months.

At the time, I was a full-time student at Georgia State University working on a second bachelor’s degree.  I also worked three jobs to support myself because I lived alone and did not share my expenses with a roommate.   Along with the four classes I was taking at the university, I was juggling a part-time job in the Law Library at GSU, another job at CNN as a web editor, and a side gig as a belly dancer at four different restaurants (Lebanese, Moroccan, Greek, and Syrian).   I was putting together an application for a Fulbright scholarship so that I could study abroad.  

When Carlos entered my life, I swooned at his deep, penetrating green eyes and his Spanish accent.  His eccentric and enigmatic character intrigued me.  His talent as a painter captivated my imagination and carried me away.  But I was NOT going to fall in love and I was NOT going to settle down because I had plans.  First and foremost was to get into a study abroad program, and then to finish my degree.  Starting a family at that moment was out of the question for both of us.  After some discussion as to what we could do, we both decided that we simply were not ready financially, emotionally, or in any way, shape or form to become parents.

Becoming a parent should be something people think about with a great deal of seriousness.  Once a baby is born, that child becomes your responsibility for the next 18 years or more.  It is a decision that should never be taken lightly.  I decided to terminate that pregnancy because neither Carlos nor I were ready to take on such an awesome responsibility.  I wrote a little note. To God?  To the Universe?  To the soul of an unborn child?  I do not know.  Maybe I just wrote it to myself.  “Keep this soul ready until a time when I am ready to be a mother.”  Then I made an appointment and went to a clinic to terminate my pregnancy. 

Less than a year later, I got pregnant again.  Carlos and I had been together for about a year by then.  He had just started college himself, but I was in my last year at Georgia State.   I did some math.  The baby would be born in May.  I would be finished with my degree in May.  I was 35 years old.  Maybe this was the only chance I’d have at motherhood.  I considered how it would be to raise a child with the uncertainty of our financial circumstances, considering that Carlos still had a few more years in college.  I figured that with me working part-time and with him working part-time, together it was enough to support a child.  I felt certain that since I would not have the rigors of juggling work and school, I could juggle the rigors of work and a baby.  I was as ready as a person can be to become a mother.  I welcomed my daughter into this world on May 8, 1999. 

GreenGirlsMy mother was ecstatic at becoming a grandmother.  Bella, my daughter, is her only grandchild. I hadn’t told my mother about the abortion, even though I knew she was pro-choice.  I always felt my decision to have an abortion was a private decision that was between me and Carlos, but which was ultimately my decision and mine alone to make.

Because I had decided to have an abortion when I did, I was able to be the best mother I could be to my daughter.   I would not have gotten pregnant with her because the pregnancies were too close together.  She would not have existed.  Because I had her by choice, rather than because I had no other option, I was able to dedicate myself to raising her in the best way I knew how.  My meager financial resources could be allocated to her.  My attention could be focused on her.  My daughter and I share the closest relationship imaginable.  For that, I am grateful.

As my daughter got older, the subject of abortion came up.  Sex and reproduction was never a taboo subject for me and my daughter.  I wondered if and when to tell her about my own abortion.  One day, when she was about 12 or 13, I decided it was hypocritical not to say something to her.  She didn’t bat an eyelash.  She had already formed strong opinions about a woman’s right to control her own body.  I wonder where she got that from?  Maybe it’s because at the age of five she accompanied me on a Planned Parenthood “Pub Crawl and Condom Outreach” excursion in Little Five Points in Atlanta, where we passed out condoms and reminded people to “Raise a Glass to Roe!

In 2017, I shared my abortion story via video with Advocates for Youth’s 1 in 3 Campaign.  This year, I told my story live in Washington, DC for the 1:3 Speakout.  I met many strong and courageous people who told their own abortion stories.  I am proud to be a part of this group.

Supporting me and encouraging me during every step, were my own daughter and my mother.  “I’m so proud of you, honey!” my mother told me.    I still remember her placard from nearly 30 years ago that read: Mothers for Choice.  “I’m so proud of you, Mom!” my daughter told me.  

Maybe next year you can come with me to DC and be beside me when I tell my abortion story,” I offered to her.  “I would love that!  I owe my life to that abortion.  Had you not had that abortion, you wouldn’t have had me,” she added.  She is right. 

The best t-shirt I have seen regarding abortion rights reads: “Everyone loves someone who had an abortion.”  Whether it is 1 in 3 women who have had an abortion, or 1 in 4, that statement is absolutely true.  Everyone knows someone who has had an abortion and everyone loves someone who had an abortion.

My mother is a fine, Southern lady.  She stopped smoking decades ago and has never cursed in public.  She is a good, Christian woman who does not pass judgement on others.   My daughter is a strong young woman with a keen moral compass, the deepest compassion, and a commitment to be a force for good in this world.   Both of them love someone who had an abortion: Me.   There is no better way for me to celebrate Mother’s Day than to thank my mother and my daughter for being so supportive of me.  I might be a bit of a failed Southern lady, but I am as blessed as a woman can be to have my mother and my daughter by my side. 

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Elizabeth is a teacher, blogger, reproductive rights advocate and political activist in South Florida.  

Food Choices Matter Most

sunsetIf you attended any kind of Earth Day event this year, I applaud you.  These  events serve to remind that our own habits matter enormously if we want to combat the rise of CO2’s in the atmosphere.   I talk about CO2’s rather than to say “global climate change” or “global warming” because those terms have become so poltically-charged.  Never mind that there is, obviously, a direct link between the rise in CO2 levels and the rising global temperature.  Never mind that human activity is assuredly the cause of the rise of CO2 levels, and thus, the changing climate.   This is well-established in the scientific literature and generally accepted by the scientific community.  But never mind that.  Let’s just stick to one thing that can be easily and irrefutably measured, and that is CO2 emissions.

Let’s get back to talking about what does matter: lowering our carbon footprint and moving towards a more sustainable lifestyle.   It is no coincidence that individual choices which lower our own personal carbon footprint also go a long way to achieving greater health and vitality for ourselves.  We can’t view ourselves and our planet as separate entitites.  The health of our planet suffers in direct correlation to the suffering of our collective and indivual health.

When I attended last year’s Earth Day event, March for Science: Heal the Planet (April 22, 2017 in Fort Lauderdale) I blogged about the lack of focus on diet.  Of all the many speakers who were featured at the event in Fort Lauderdale, no one mentioned food or diet as an important component in reducing greenhouse gases.  (See Climate Change Don’t Bury Your Head in the Sand!).   Yet I would venture to say that diet just might be the single most important thing any individual can do to lower carbon emissions.

So I was pleased to see that this year’s Heal the Planet Day on April 22  wasn’t so much focused on the science behind climate change, but more on the importance of individual choices.  I was thrilled at the number of vendors and speakers who were focusing on food.   For Earth Day 2018, Heal the Planet’s Mission was:

“… to educated, empower and inspire the next generation of children and adults about the power of their daily choices and the huge impact these actions have on their own health and the health, well-being and sustainabilithy of the planet and all its inhabitatants.  (www.healtheplanet.com)

Among the sponsors of Heal the Planet Earth Day 2018 were SoFlo Vegans (soflovegans.com), Edible South Florida Magazine (ediblesouthflorida.com), and Whole Foods Market.  Newly-opened Vegan Fine Foods market and cafe opened its doors to samplings and demos.  There was even a vegan chef competition.  Everywhere I turned, the focus was on food!  Yes!!

Why, you might ask, is food and diet central lowering our carbon footprint?  In his book Drawdown: The Most Comprehensive Plan Ever Proposed to Reverse Global Warming, author Paul Hawken gives us a blueprint for how we can achieve not just a slow-down of the release of greenhouse gases, but a reversal of this trend.  Using carbon data culled from peer-reviewed scientific journals and economic data from the World Bank and others, the book lists solutions ranked in order of importance.  Quite notable is that solutions 3 and 4 are food-related: reduced food waste and plant-rich diet, respectively.  (“Paul Hawken Shares a Plan to Reverse Global Warming”, by Linda Sechrist, Natural Awakenings, April 2018, p. 29.)

A study by University of Minnesota Professor of Ecology G. David Tilman and graduate student Michael Clark looked at diet trends and their relation to greenhouse gas emissions and habitat degradation.  Their study was published in the November 12, 2014 online edition of Nature and concluded that:

“…if the world were to adopt variations on three common diets, health would be greatly increased at the same time global greenhouse gas emissions were [sic] reduced by an amount equal to the current greenhouse gas emissions of all cars, trucks, planes, trains and ships.  In addition, this dietary shift would prevent the destruction of an area of tropical forests and savannahs as large as half of the United States.” (OurWorldUNU.edu)

Wait a minute!  We can reduce the CO2’s equal to that produced by all the cars, trucks, planes, trains and ships combined just by changing our diet???  We can save tropical forests and other valuable habitats the size of half of this country just by changing our diet???   Why then, isn’t diet at the center of EVERY discussion about greenhouse gases and global warming?  It absolutely boggles the mind!  Perhaps it’s because so many, including environmentalists, are loathe to admit that the connection between personal dietary choices, global food production, and global climate change ultimately means they will have to make some changes in thier own lifestyle.  They will have to reduce consumption of or give up foods that they have eaten their entire lives and are addicted to.  They might even have to admit that individual choices sometimes make a much bigger impact than trying to affect policy changes on the governmental level.

I’ve said it before and it bears repeating: The truly “Inconvenient Truth” is that we can’t be serious at all about combating CO2 emissions and the resulting change in our climate without putting diet front and center of this discussion.  The common diet that Professor Tilman refers to in his study that does the most to reduce greenhouse gases is a whole foods, plant-based diet, preferably organic. (#wholefoodsplantbased).  In my forthcoming book, I use the simple term “nutrient-dense” diet, as coined by Dr. Joel Furhman.

How much does diet matter?  According to Jane Richards, a climate activist with GreenEatz, Livestock farming produces from 20 to 50 percent of all manmade greenhouse gas emissions. (“Changing Our Diet to Cool the Climate: Good Food Choices Enable Global Health,” by Judith Fertig in Natural Awakenings Magazine, April, 2018, p. 32-33.)  She goes on to say that Meat, cheese and eggs have the highest carbon footprint; fruit, vegetables, beans and nuts, much lower.  The carbon footprint of a vegetarian diet is about half that of a meat-lover’s diet.

Which meat is the worst producer of C02’s?  You guessed it:  red meat!  Red meat creates five times more emissions per calorie than chicken, pork, dairy or eggs, according to research published in “Proceedings of the National Academy of Science”.  Red meat also produces 11 times more emissions than the production of potatoes, wheat or rice.  (“Healthy Climate, Healthy People: Why a Warming Planet is Harming Our Health” by Lisa Marshall, Natural Awakenings Magazine, April, 2018. p. 26)

A little more scrutiny shows us which plants have the lowest carbon footprint.  Root vegetables have a lower carbon footprint than crops grown above ground.  That puts beets, carrots, radishes and potatoes above typical above-ground crops like lettuce, broccoli, and bell peppers.  Seasonal and regional fruit and vegetables have an even lighter carbon footprint because they have less distance to travel from farm to table.  Locally-grown and locally-consumed is best.

One plant food that has a high carbon footprint is rice.  According to researchers at Project Drawdown, rice cultivation accounts for about 10 percent of agricultural greenhouse gas emissions and nearly 19 percent of global methane emissions. (“Healthy Climate, Healthy People: Why a Warming Planet is Harming Our Health” by Lisa Marshall, Natural Awakenings Magazine, April, 2018. p. 26).  This fact has made me reconsider rice as a staple.  Quinoa and buckwheat are excellent replacements for rice.

Notice that with the exception of rice (especially rice that is not grown organically), a plant-based diet is much more sustainable and has a lower carbon footprint than a diet which includes a considerable amount of meat and dairy.  We also notice that a diet which is plant-based is much healthier and more likely to prevent disease than a diet which includes a considerable amount of meat and dairy.  It stands to reason then, that the more we individually shift away from a diet that revolves around and includes a considerable amount of meat and dairy, and towards a diet that is based on and revolves around whole plant foods, the more we can individually and collectively reduce CO2 emissions whilst simultaneously improving our health.

More and more, we are seeing evidence of the need to systematically move towards a plant-based diet as individuals, and as a society.  It is now irrefutable that a diet built around animal products and highly-refined foods is unsustainable and raises CO levels.   So how do we get to where we need to go in changing our diets?   We can intellectualize that the more plant-based diet we have, the more sustainable, but sometimes intellect fails to be an adequate motivator.  How about changing our diet to improve our health and prevent disease?  Again, we often harbor very bad habits that have averse affects on our health.  We know we shouldn’t smoke, but we do.  We know we shouldn’t drink so much caffeine, consume so much sugar, etc.

How about tapping into our emotions?  Compassion is an innate human  quality and I think all would agree that our world today is severly lacking in compassion.  How can we foster a deeper connection to our innate compassion?  Ask Susan Hargreaves, with Animal Hero Kids (animalherokids.org).   SoFLo Vegans invited Susan to speak aSusan Hargreavesbout the connection to compassion, animals, and how this connection could impact how we choose to eat.  Susan brought copies of her book “Animal Hero Kids” and explained how the book can be  included in K-12 curriculum in Florida schools.  Fostering a sense of compassion towards animals beginning at a young age might not make vegetarians of us all, but it could create an awareness around our food choices beyond just what’s good for us, or what is pleasurable for us.  The more we connect with the importance of our daily food choices – to ourselves, our health, the animals, and the planet, the closer we can come to lowering our individual carbon footprint, and living more sustainably.book.jpg

To find out exactly what an impact diet makes in lowering your carbon footprint, go to The Vegan Calculator ( http://thevegancalculator.com/#calculator)

 

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Elizabeth I Bercaw is a Health Coach and founder of  The Sexy Healthy Lifestyle in Hollywood, Florida.  Elizabeth is a blogger, community activist, feminist, butterfly gardener, and habitat eco activist.

First Anniversary of the Women’s March: Power to the Polls

PowerWednesday, November 9, 2016 was a tragic day for me.  I woke up, though I had barely slept, to shock and disbelief.  Had the election results from the night before been just a bad dream?  Or was, in fact, the groper from hell elected as our next president?  I was so wrought with sadness that I could scarcely make myself go into work.

The idea of leaving the U.S had entered my mind even as I was watching the election results.  It was not outside the realm of possibility.  As an ESL teacher,I can easily get a job pretty much anywhere in the world.  Brazil was calling to me.  Rather than try to stomach seeing that orange-haired pussy-grabber take the helm of this country, I would distance myself from the debacle and wait out the next four years on the beaches of Brazil with a caipirinha.  Brazilian beaches (and Brazilian beach boys) might be able to lessen the intense depression and sadness I felt.  My country had let me down.

The new year arrived.  Every fiber of my being cringed as I thought of him being sworn in as president.  I wanted more than anything to escape before Inauguration Day, but it just wasn’t feasible.   As that day approached, I felt more and more despondent.  Maybe the last two months had been a long nightmare and I would wake up to see a woman sworn into office for the first time.

Life went on, but it was far from normal.  My Inbox was more full than usual, and I waded through far too many emails that expressed the same kind of sadness and outrage I felt.  One such email which announced the Women’s March the day after the inauguration, got filed away in the back of my mind.  Funny thing, the back of the mind.  It is a storage place for some pretty important things if we find our way back to them.

Then one night in January of 2017, I had a dream.  In my dream I was in a beautiful oak-tree-lined neighborhood which looked somewhat like Key West.  I went inside a bar that was in a historic old house.  It could have been Sloppy Joe’s by the look of the wooden floors, antique mahogany bar and the taxidermied marlins on the wall.  The bar was full of an older clientele, probably locals.  One white-haired old man approached me and asked if I wanted to join him for a beer.  My instincts were to decline, but he did somewhat resemble Papa Hemingway himself, so I figured why not?

I sat across from this old guy knowing full well we probably had little in common other than the fact we were both white and over the age of 50, but then almost everyone else in the bar fit that description.  Just as we were about to engage in meaningless small talk, I heard a commotion outside the bar.  It was the sound of numerous voices chanting in unison.  I walked to the window to look outside.

Marching down the street was a large throng of women. There were dozens and dozens of them.  Some were dressed in bright pink, while others wore white.  Some wore purple.  They marched in groups according to their color, so that the pinks were together and the whites were together and the purples were together.  This made the colors all the more noticeable.  The significance of the colors were not lost on me.  Pink has  been adopted by various women’s causes.  White was the color the suffragettes wore.  And purple has also long been associated with women’s rights activists.  The different-colored groups of women made this look like a parade with a purpose.

I was overwhelmed by the energy of these marching women.  Suddenly, I knew I had a purpose.  “These are my people!” I thought to myself.  “I belong with them!”  And I joined their ranks and marched along with them towards the town square and government buildings where the march ended in a rally.  Women of all ages and colors milled about and gave attention to the speakers.  I was in my place!

After the rally ended, I realized I had left the bar without saying anything to the old guy with whom I had been sharing a beer.  I went back to the bar to find him to apologize, but was told by the waitress (also a white woman over 50) that he had left.  I offered to pay my tab, but she said he had taken care of it.  I felt bad that I had ditched him.  Then I woke up.

The next morning I wondered about my dream.  Why had I dreamt that?  What did it mean?  Then I remembered what I had filed away in the back of my mind.  There really was a Women’s March!  When was it?  Had I missed it?  I checked my email to find that the march was the very next day!  My dream was my subconscious telling me not to miss the march.  I texted my friend Elia.  “Let’s go together to the Women’s March!

Elia PatriarchyI attended the 2017 Women’s March in Miami with my friends Elia and Paulino.  It was unlike any march I have ever attended.  It was as if all the bad energy that resulted after the election was turned around and channeled into the most amazing and powerful energy.   We weren’t just pissed off.  We were pissed off and DOING something about it.  We were not going to stand around being massively  insulted by the groper-in-chief and his horrendous cabinet.  We were not going to tolerate the kind of bigotry and misogyny that brought him to his position.  We were standing up and fighting back!

I would not have gone to the Women’s March Miami had it not been for my dream.  My dream told me that my place was with those women (and men).  My dream told me that my purpose was to fight alongside my sisters and brothers for a more just, inclusive, egalitarian and peaceful world.  My dream told me that as I had been an activist for decades, now was not the time to abandon my country and find solace on foreign shores, but to stay and fight for what is right. WomensMarch2017

Interpreting that part of my dream was easy.  Perhaps the old white guy and the old white clientele in the bar were also symbolic.  Could they have represented the typical Trump voter? Rather than seeing them as the enemy, perhaps my dream was telling me that they are people worthy of compassion themselves.  They should not be abandoned as we fight for a better world.

The Women’s March inspired me and empowered me.  It is not a one-time event for myself or for thousands and thousands of others who participated around the country and around the world.  I have been re-activated, while others are just now finding their activism.  I am now actively volunteering with Planned Parenthood (#floridaplannedparenthood)  and the New Florida Majority (#newfloridamajority), not just to combat Trump policies, but because it is the right thing to do.

LuzNFMThis is how I met my new friend, Luz Buitrago (@luzbuitrago).  We have both volunteered with the New Florida Majority on the Say Yes to Second Chances Campaign to restore voting rights to felons who have served their prison sentences.

Luz also had a dream about the Women’s March before she went to Washington to attend.  “I wonder how many other women had a dream about the Women’s March?” She commented to me.  Thus, she had the idea to share our stories and put that question out to others.

My dream led me to the Women’s March, and the Women’s March has given me a renewed energy and drive.  It has connected me already to dozens of other energized and fired-up folks.  I am psyched about attending the upcoming First Anniversary – Women’s March Power to the Polls in Miami, January 21, 2018.

Brazil will have to wait.  I have a lot of work to do!

If you also had a dream about the Women’s March as Luz and I did, please share it with us via Facebook.  

 

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Alabamans say “Thank God for Mississippi” and Mississippians say “Thank God for Alabama!”

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That’s Alabama and Mississippi’s long-held rivalry to see who gets to be in 49th and 50th place for the worst PR in the country. I grew up hearing that kind of tongue-in-cheek, self-deprecating humor that Southerners are so good at.   Only, neither Alabama nor Mississippi are able to see the humor in it now.

The country is watching the dramatic Senate race in Alabama to see if the very controversial Republican Roy Moore will be elected, or if Alabamans will vote instead for  Democrat Doug Jones, who successfully prosecuted the KKK members responsible for the 1964 church bombing in Birmingham which killed four girls.

The difference between the two candidates couldn’t be more stark.  An ultra-right religious conservative who instructed judges not to uphold the Supreme Court’s decision legalizing same-sex marriage and who refused to take the 10 Commandments off the courthouse lawn, Roy Moore has also been accused by many women of sexual assault and inappropriate behavior against minors.   On the other hand, Doug Jones is viewed as something of a civil rights hero because decades after the heinous church bombing, justice against the white supremacist murderers was finally served.  More than anything, this is a race that pivots on moral values and all eyes are on Alabama.

Which is why my mother said to me the other day: “Thank God that’s not happening in Mississippi!”  If Alabamans vote next week for Roy Moore, Mississippi will happily shift into 49th place and will be able to say “Thank God for Alabama!

But, wait.  Not so fast, Mississippi.  You can thank your Republican governor Phil Bryant for keeping you in the race for 50th place.  If not for his invitation to Donald Trump to attend the opening of the new Civil Rights Museum in Jackson, you could have easily found yourself in 49th.  Hell, you might have raised your position SIGNIFICANTLY higher simply by opening the museum.

Civil Rights icons such as Mrs. Myrlie Evers (widow of slain civil rights activist Medgar Evers), Congressman John Lewis, and Congressman Bennie Thompson, among many more notables were slated to come to the opening on December 9.  But when Donald Trump accepted the invitation, those icons had no other choice but to boycott the event in protest.  I am incensed that they have been robbed of their chance to take part in an event that would not only honor the civil rights activists and supporters who gave their lives for freedom and justice, but would have advanced Mississippi light years towards racial unity and atonement.

I am absolutely LIVID!” my mom told me about Trump’s visit to the city she has called home for the past 48 years, in the state where she was born.

I was planning on going, but I will not show up if he’s there.  I don’t want anyone to think I support him or his presence there!”  So, my mother, like Congressman Lewis and many others, will not participate in one of the most momentous occasions that has happened to Mississippi in a long time.

What Mississippi and Alabama are doing, what they have been doing over the last couple of decades in fact, is reconciling with a past that cast them into 49th and 50th place many lifetimes ago.  It hasn’t been easy for either state.  I have watched as both states have faced the ugly reality of their violent past (from the era of slavery, through Jim Crow lynchings, through the violence of the civil rights movement).  After decades, crimes that were committed during the civil rights era have successfully been prosecuted in both states.  I’ve watched Mississippi finally own up to these crimes.  I have, as a native Mississippian, witnessed the healing that needed (needs) to happen.  It’s been painful and not without resistance, but the healing of old wounds is palpable.  You just knew things were getting better all the time.

That’s what makes both the Senate race in Alabama and the controversy surrounding Trump’s attendance to the Civil Rights Museum in Mississippi so tragic.  Both states have made slow but steady progress towards truth and reconciliation.  There are many, many good people in Mississippi and Alabama who believe in respect, justice, tolerance and compassion.   Believe me when I say that there are many in both states who are cringing right now, not just because they know they whole country is watching, rolling their eyes and saying “Yeah, what do you expect from MississippiWhat do you expect from Alabama?”  They are also cringing because they know that white supremacy is NOT what they are all about.  That intolerance is NOT what they are all about.  That hypocrisy is NOT endemic to the nature of all Southerners.

Mississippians, Alabamans, and all Southerners for that matter, are still struggling with the same PR and stereotyping problem that Muslims struggle with.  The radical views of the worst among them doesn’t represent the whole.  Not by a long shot.

I’m praying for miracles: that Trump will decline the invitation at the last minute and allow Mississippi its much-needed, much-deserved healing that this museum represents.  And that rational, compassionate and good-thinking Alabamans will reject Roy Moore and embrace Doug Jones, a candidate that represents a new path towards tolerance, inclusion and justice for women, LGBT, people of color and religious minorities.    The good people of Mississippi and Alabama deserve the healing that’s been a long time coming.

Confederate Symbols are Symbols of Racism and Violence!

It’s high time to remove these symbols of terrorism and repression from our public spaces! 

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You’d have to be hiding under a rock to not know about the tragic events that took place in Charlottesville, Virginia on Saturday.  Anyone who’s anyone has weighed in on this subject.  For anyone who is in any way connected to the public sphere, the world is watching and the American public needs to know where you stand! 

Just so there’s no question about where I stand, I say:

 “It’s high time to remove symbols of terrorism, violence, racism, bigotry and repression from our public spaces!”

 I can’t stand by and watch people say that these symbols somehow represent the cultural heritage of the South

Let me just set the historical record straight here.  First, I am a great, great granddaughter of Confederates – on both sides of my family.  And my ancestors were WRONG!!!  (Hmm.  No one’s rolling over in their grave!) 

The reason they fought this war was to preserve the system of slavery and the profits they gained from this immoral practice. 

I can’t believe I have to remind people about some basic facts of history, but apparently, if President Trump can put Robert E. Lee on an equal basis with George Washington, we need to do a quick review here.

As a teacher of ESL I am often asked about American history.  My students come from Europe, Latin America and Asia.  I don’t expect them to know much about American history.  Monday’s conversation class revolved around the events in Charlottesville.  My students had many questions.  I gave them as brief an explanation as possible, then I turned to them and asked about civil wars in their country, and how they have handled public statues and symbols from those divisive times.

One student, Juan, is from Spain.  Spain’s civil war was much more recent than our’s and as bloody and divisive as a civil war could be.  Juan was confused. 

I thought the South lost the war.  Usually the victor writes history.  Why were the Confederates allowed to keep their symbols and statues if they lost?

“Ah, that is because the South lost the war, but they won the battle!”  I replied.

So here is the brief history lesson that obviously bears repeating!  After Reconstruction ended and the Union left the South to its own devices, all the Southern states decreed they would Restore the Old South!  Read: restore the era of slavery without calling it slavery.  Southern states enacted Jim Crow laws to disenfranchise blacks and put them back into the same place on the social and economic scale as they were before the war.  That was their legal answer to restoring the Old South.

The extra-legal answer was to form the worst terrorist organization this country has ever known (if you don’t include the U.S. government’s terrorist campaign of genocide against Native Americans…)  The KKK and other hate groups grew up from this call to restore the Old South.  They used terrorism, violence, intimidation, and outrageous propaganda to further their cause.  The symbols they used to strike fear into the hearts of anyone who dared oppose them, or who dared to stand up for their rights, was the confederate flag.  Ask anyone who has been the victim of a KKK attack.  The confederate flag and a burning cross are the symbols used to create fear and repression.

One only need to look up the history of the incorporation of the confederate flag into the flags of Southern states to know exactly what was going on.  The state of Georgia did not adopt the confederate symbol until 1955 in a reaction to the Supreme Court decision Brown vs. the Board of Education, and its follow-up decision requiring all schools to desegregate.  Thus, the confederate flag was the symbol used as a rallying cry to once again, “Restore the Old South!”, to fight against desegregation, and to resist voter registration of blacks, among other things. 

Georgia finally came to terms with that racist symbol, which was the official state flag until 2003, when it was finally replaced.   The state of South Carolina took down the confederate flag which flew atop the state house in 2015 after a gunman broke into a church and gunned down nine people.  Now, there is only one state which still has the confederate flag, which, apparently was never adopted as the official flag: Mississippi, my home state

What about that other public symbol of the confederacy, Stone Mountain Georgia?  It proudly displays Jefferson Davis, Robert E. Lee, and Stonewall Jackson.  (Apparently, Donald Trump lumps President George Washington into this same group!).   

download-3.jpgStone Mountain has great historical significance because it was where the Ku Klux Klan was founded in 1915.  (Now, isn’t that something to crow about!)  It was the Daughters of the Confederacy,-those lovely, genteel Southern belles who swore to keep alive the dream of “Restoring the Old South” – who decided in 1916 to commission the monument to these confederate generals.  (This was also the beginning of the Nadir, an era of lynchings, murder, bombings, and violent attacks.  Still ongoing???)

Stone Mountain was a project that sputtered for years, but after the state of Georgia bought the site in 1958, then-governor Marvin Griffin decreed the project should continue.  Work began in 1963, a very bloody period in civil rights history, and was completed in 1972, a time when the South finally had to concede to desegregation.  The timing of this is not coincidental.  Georgia was declaring loudly and boldly that they would not desegregate without a fight and they proclaimed it on the side of Stone Mountain!

Historian and journalist Isabel Wilkerson, author of The Warmth of Other Suns, rightly call this “historical amnesia”.  To say that confederate statues and flags somehow represent the cultural heritage of the South, without mentioning that they have been used for over a hundred years by terrorist organizations and hate groups, is to ignore the historical facts.

Historical amnesia can occur if we choose to forget our past, to whitewash it, or not discuss it.   No one can erase my historical memory.  I can proudly say:

 “I’ve been around for more than half a century, so DON’T FUCK WITH ME about history!!!!”

I was 6 years-old when I entered into first grade in the Jackson, Mississippi school system in 1969 when the public schools, after dragging their feet for nearly 15 years, had to desegregate.   I didn’t know anything about that at the time, because I was just a child and my mother cared not one iota that I went to school with black children.

One thing I was very aware of, were the bomb threats.  Every year I was in elementary school, from 1969 up to about 1974, we had bomb threats in the schools.  Some white supremacist would call and say they had planted a bomb in our school and threatened to blow up hundreds of innocent children!  Our teachers took us out of the classrooms and onto the fields where we would wait until a bomb squad could scour the school and clear that it was safe to go back inside. 

That is what I am reminded of when I see those same hate groups protesting the removal of confederate symbols from public places.  These guys threatened to blow me up for going to school with black children!!!!

If we don’t come to terms with this past, we cannot heal.  The past carries on into the present.  The story of these symbols should be told, but it should be told in a context that includes a real historical perspective.  We need to amass a historical record akin to the project that Steven Spielberg mounted to record the memories of Holocaust survivors for exactly the same reason.  As those who lived this history get older and begin to die, history can be re-written to serve the needs of hate groups.  They are already doing it.

I’ve heard a lot of talk about “The New South.  I’m still waiting for it.  Well, we can start by taking down these public symbols and by clearly and emphatically denouncing the racism, bigotry and violence of these white supremacist hate groups and the symbols they support!

It’s time to make this declaration ourselves, and to demand that our elected  officials do the same! 

Elizabeth I. Bercaw,

B.A. in history from Millsaps College, Jackson, Ms

B.A. in political science from Georgia State University, Atlanta, Ga.

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